Friday, June 7, 2013

enough.


Yesterday was a great day at the boardwalk, celebrating the end of the school year-my boy will be in 1st grade next year :( and while it was a GREAT time and the kids had a BLAST, 
all I could do was think about how self-conscious I felt the entire day.


Why is that?
Why will I pick myself apart every, single time I'm around a group of women?  
Big or small, tall or short...I tear myself down in comparison.  
I literally made myself sick about it last night.  
For one reason, I wore a tank top.  
Wearing a tank top for a former fat girl is like gong somewhere naked!  Seriously.  
But when it's 99 degrees in Texas, tank tops are about the only option :( 
But it's more than that. 


Good news:
Today I am telling myself to get over it!  
To be proud of who I am and to be comfortable and confident in my own skin.  Easier said than done, I know but I have set a goal to TRY.


Part of the life-long journey is to push ourselves and set new goals right? 
Losing the weight is the easy part...honestly, it is.  It's the working on the self-esteem and lack of confidence that's a work in progress for me...a constant battle.  To finally shed that fat/big girl image I stared at for so long. 

I am sick and tired of feeling so self-conscious!  
I must accept that I'm 5'10" and a large frame.  
When I am home alone I feel confident, it's when I get in large groups of smaller, shorter women...I usually tower over them :( that's a huge complex for me.  
I have come a long way.  
I am healthy.
I work hard every day to be my healthiest self through exercise and healthy eating! 


What is there to be so worried about?  
Am I worried that someone will see a stretch mark or a jiggly part of my tummy?
WHO CARES.  

Today I will set a goal to work on my insecurities and try to embrace my body...such a hard task but I will sure try.  There is never a goal that's too far out of reach for me and I know that.  I will TRY my hardest and that's the best I can do.  


My best is good enough today and every day!  And yours is too!
  
Do you have insecurities?  
Lack self-confidence?  
If so, set a goal to work on embracing yourself...loving yourself for who you are.  
It's often difficult for women since the media portrays the perfect woman as well...an image few of us can attain.  
But oh how freeing it would feel to love yourself for YOU!  
You must believe in yourself to conquer weight loss and fitness goals, but we must also believe in ourselves to know that we're worth it, we are good enough and we are beautiful enough!  
I will never be "petite" or 5'2" and 100lbs...it's just not in my future...ever!  
And I must accept that.  

Often times we don't give ourselves the credit we deserve.   I'm so guilty of this. 
We are worth the fight.  
It's not okay to accept our less-than-best.  
I don't like to see quitters.  Those that gripe about their body, their fitness level or lack-there-of, their health and they don't get up and do something about it! 

Lets stand up together!  Get moving.  Embrace ourselves!  
Be the healthy role model that our children, our families and WE deserve!
  
For me, I have set a goal to be positive.  To see the beauty in myself.  
I will not focus on my larger shoulders and jiggly tummy, but I WILL focus on the good stuff!

I have set a goal to run the Houston half marathon in October and beat my time by 30 minutes!  YES, 30 minutes and I know it's within reach and possible...because ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!!  

What will you focus on today?    
What are some goals you'll set for yourself this summer?
Lets do it together!

**I will announce the SPARTAN winner tomorrow, so stay tuned!**

Prepared success!
A go-to lately!? Chicken with Greek yogurt! I drain can of chicken breast, add spoonful plain Chobani Greek, and sliced purple grapes! Serve on mixed greens! Doesn't even need dressing! 
Also,
Baked Tilapia, sauteed squash and green beans, steamed brown rice
 Easy, delicious and prepared in less than 20 minutes!  I steamed the brown rice, sauteed the veggies in extra virgin olive oil, prepared the fish with a little lemon pepper seasoning and popped in the oven at 400 for 20 minutes until flakes with fork!  It was SUPER easy and very satisfying!  See, healthy eating can be easy AND delicious!  
The whole family enjoyed it too, remember no special arrangements in this house...ya get what ya get!  

And today to celebrate the first official day of summer, my boys rode their bikes while I ran 3 miles at a 9:50 pace.  Nothing super fast but it kept us all moving and sweating in this heat!  Luckily some of the humidity went away for a few days, which made the workout MUCH more enjoyable :) whew!  
But as you can see, still SWEATY!  Gotta get used to it, it's only the first week of JUNE!

Will you sweat today?  


Another great recipe that was VERY kid-friendly?
Cheesy Garlic Cauliflower "breadsticks"
*breadsticks without the bread"
Here's a pic of them all sliced up & served with my turkey meatloaf-found on my recipe page at the top! And sautéed veggies-not pictured, they were still cooking when I snapped the pic!
For the sticks,
Steam head of cauliflower and then "rice" it with fork! I steamed with lid on medium heat for about 20minutes, until tender so it 
Did not require food processor! 
Mix 1 cup cauliflower-rice, 1 egg, 1 clove garlic-chopped, 1tsp dried oregano, 1/4c Parmesan cheese and 1/4 c low fat mozz. 
Spread on baking sheet and form into rectangle shape, bake at 425 for 15minutes or until browned. Top with a 2 -3cloves chopped garlic, 1/4 c cheese mixture of your choice and a little melted butter or margarine, just enough to slightly coat the cauliflower. Pop back in oven for 5 minutes, until cheese is melted!

Slice, serve & enjoy! I PROMISE my boys devoured these and never asked what it was! Just said, Yum breadsticks were yummy! :-)







5 comments:

Christy @ My Dirt Road Anthem: A Runner's Blog said...

I can so relate to the comparing! I think we all have our insecurities. I can feel so great till it is time to get dressed up and do something nice, I feel like I can't do my hair, I have no boobs, etc. The older I get the more I learn to accept me for me. but old habits do die hard, and for the record I think your arms looks great. You are beautiful and are right to embrace that.

jillconyers said...

This could have been written for me. Happily, I feel insecure and lack self confidence less often as I get older but it still happens.
You're amazing! Your accomplishments, determination and drive is inspiring!

My husband has told me a time or 2, "if only you could see yourself as other people see you". Wouldn't that be awesome! I wonder why we don't?

Love this "My best is good enough today and every day!"

Mindy Bobe said...

I know exactly how you feel girl. But we have to remember that we are healthy and that's what is important. Just because someone is skinny doesn't always mean they are healthy. I think you look amazing girl! Keep it up and keep your head held high!!!

Carrie Skoll said...

I totally relate on the comparisons too. I'm short and squatty and have to remind myself constantly about being positive about my body and proud of what it can do.

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