At the finish line, it was time to snap our picture and as I looked down at my phone pic, I started to cry. Not sure why I was just seeing it but I had gained weight, let go even if only a little, of all the things I wanted for myself. Of course I hadn't allowed myself to go too far back, to that dark place I had been for so many years BUT I had slacked off. I had "finished" my journey which also meant I was losing sight of my health. Sure I'm not obese in this photo and at this time I was getting an hour or two of exercise 6-7 times a week! oh YES. I'm sorry but we cannot overcome poor eating, even if we exercise EVERY day. Vigorous exercise doesn't matter either, my workouts are tough, never easy but when I would come home and consume a poor diet, well...I just ruined all of that hard work and for what? NOTHING.
Something about that picture at the finish line clicked for me. Yet again I had an AH HA moment. And I needed it, that's for sure. I was back up to a size 12, which is nothing near the size 22 I had been at the start of my journey in 2001 but my weight was increasing, body was changing and that wasn't good. I had to get back in control. SUCH A HARD THING FOR ME TO DO ...TAKE MY LIFE BACK ONCE AGAIN. As I say a million times, it's NEVER over. It can never be over. I will fight emotional eating for the rest of my life. No day is easier but each day is worth it.
Flash forward to yesterday...date night with my husband which means
NO WORKOUT CLOTHES :) ...(the picture taken below)
I cannot believe the transformation my body has made over the past year. There are days where I wanted to quit, give up and just deal with being heavy the rest of my life BUT I am worth more than that. My family deserves more than that and I deserve happiness, true happiness. My husband thinks I'm beautiful no matter my size BUT he sees a difference in me, my confidence, attitude, overall health and I see it in him as well. We have both struggled over and over again and we will continue to struggle BUT it's how we overcome those struggles that keep us going, make us stronger TOGETHER!
We have just signed up for the Commitment Day 2014 race in our area...I suggest looking for one near you! The entire meaning behind the race is SO powerful! We are making the commitment to better health now and always! We are committing to making this year GREAT! That journal that we received at this race played a huge part in our success. We would come home in the evening, write our goals, our foods and our exercise! We had before pictures in there along with how we felt at that moment...at the race finish line. We wanted to remember why we made the commitment in the first place and it worked! Small steps in the right direction are worth celebrating! Keep that in mind always. Keep pushing, reaching and exceeding your goals for the New Year! Start now and commit to NEVER QUITTING and NEVER GIVING UP!
My hopes for you and my fellow Move It Mommas that will be joining us locally, is that all of your health and fitness goals are reached THIS year! I am here to always be honest, share the ups and downs and helpful motivation and tips along the way!