Friday, April 8, 2011

a bridesmaid dress brings back some memories...

Today I went to order my bridesmaid dress for one of my very best friend's wedding and it brought back some very bad memories for me! Let's see, where do I begin...
It was 2001, I was overweight, unhealthy, unhappy and in college. I get a phone call from a childhood best friend of mine and she's getting married! Oh yay, I was so happy for her but then the panic set in...I have to wear a dress?! A bridesmaid dress?! OH NO. I headed home for the weekend, went to order the dress and soon as I walked in the dressing room, I cried...a lot. How could I have let myself get that way? What did I do? I was measured for a size 22. I cried the entire two hour ride back to college. That's when I had enough! It was time for change. I stared in the mirror for two hours, crying off and on and asking myself why? Over and over. Most of you know where the story goes from there, if not...find my weight loss story at the top of this blog! Anyway, I was able to take that dress in to a size 8! Yep!!! I was SO proud at that moment! I had changed my dress size and SO much more. My confidence, my health...my ENTIRE LIFE. I was so happy that day. I have been in several weddings since then, um like 6! I have had two kids and my weight has gone up and down throughout the 10 years since that day. Today brought back those fears...what size would I order? I was SO nervous going in that dressing room because I have been working so hard to lose that final 20lbs I so desperately want OFF. So what was the outcome...GREAT! I love the dress, love how it looks and although I still have some weight loss goals to meet before her big day in September, I am sure happy that it didn't take me back to that day in 2001. I am a completely different girl from that day and will never be THAT girl again. And on a positive note: Tomorrow is my first 5K in two years...yep, I guess I took a little hiatus from running after my second child was born, but as I've said before, I'm back and ready to RUN! We're going to pick up our packets tonight, so WISH ME LUCK! I am pumped and super excited! Let's hope we do well and the boys are feeling light in the morning, since I'll be pushing them!

3 comments:

Carly said...

Congrats on the dress. I can understand that stress.
Good luck with your race tomorrow! Can't wait to hear how it goes!

kimert said...

Awesome!!! Congrats. And definitely good luck with the 5k! Can't wait to read a race recap. :) HAVE FUN!!!!

Ashley said...

Good luck on your 5K, you will do great, can't wait to hear all about it. :)

Yay for dress hunting, I'm sure you look great! You'll have to show it off at some point.

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